https://youtu.be/7D4vNcK6D38

This song is me.

◦ At 50 its not about adding but subtracting

◦ Life becomes about living not just staying alive. You realize that you have lived more of your life then you will be left with at 50.

◦ If you believe in your dream \240then it can happen. This 50 day was something only I wanted.

◦ Parents are now a blessing than support .

◦ I don’t want anyone to love me but I don’t want anyone i love to hate me now. \240Investment of time emotions energy was made over time in these relationships it’s time to maintain them.

◦ People who make you uncomfortable for any reason it’s time for me to evaluate their presence in life. If unable to delete and how to reduce.

◦ Those who think and live by bottom three chkara - food, sex and desire don’t try to change them but connection with them can be patchy. Is it OK than disconnection.?

◦ Once in a life time you will connect with someone and have a braincrush. Gender not imp. Clear the froth and settle to have meaningful conversation. If they are your wavelength it will stick if not let it fade away. But let it be neck up chk up \240intellectual conversations only rest is temporary. The other thing is it will give you the stimulation of the brain to move forward reflect and challenge your growth. So what i need.

◦ We don’t rise to our level of expectations but fall to level of preparation. To live a life of a minimalist is a dream but when it happens you learn if you are ready and how to prep more.

◦ I can be on vacation for max 72 hrs and then i need a brain stimulation . I need exercise, healthy food and alone time.

◦ Friends are important but not necessary. Those that u connect with never disconnect with distance.

◦ Going away on a trip \240does not mean you are on vacation. You have to have the mindset.

◦ We all are on borrowed time. When a friend falls sick or we loose a friend- we feel sorry for them or scared for ourselves???both … maybe more for mysel

Thin or heavy- irrespective of what the scale tells me I have never been able to eat heavy food. I shut down- have food coma.Need a nap to get out of the coma and yes I am thie biggest B***H who is cranky and angry with herself for eating heavy fried food.

Give me nuts I am good

Cut me fruit I am happy

Pour me juice and I will hug you.

Mind has its own way of partnering with the gut to enjoy food-but they both don’t know heart and tongue have a big role. My heart desires and then everything goes away

But in all honesty its the tongue- what we say and what we eat is what we become!!

Week 3 Salzburg.

6/24: Every time I

\240travel and close the hotel room door I wonder if I left a part of me on that bed i slept on or I taking a part of it in me.

…. like waking up in the morning watching sunrise. Its beautiful and makes you happy. But we don’t know what the day has in store for us.

Similarly when we let someone into our life we don’t know how the friendship will evolve.

Same goes to visiting a new city. We intentionally visit but does the city meet or exceed your dreams.

So life is about keeping your options open. Dropping some and picking up some If it is good you smile and have a memory. If not then its an experience from which you learn. I am leaving Vienna with beautiful memories of the castle and the fact that women can rule the world ( 1500)and have a family. Something lot of men need to still learn. (2022) But the right age of meeting the partner is important. How can one know that what and how \240our thoughts will be at 50 with a person you met at 21. Once again you build memories and learn from experiences.

I am leaving behind a habit that belonging somewhere is not important. Be a river not a lake.

Whts the difference?

Rivers move and lakes are still. River has boundaries and yet it flows. No one knows how deep and which part is deeper than the other- just like us.

A different Kind of normal today-

Bobby had fever so we stayed home all day.

A new record on how much i walked… towards something or away internally no sure. But walked.

One thing is for sure i am walking away from something for sure piece by piece. I am walking towards myself also for sure. With age you get the clarity of what you want and what you stand for in life.

I don’t want to go back to life i left behind in Dallas. No more social drama, engaging in conversations that involve someone, laser focused on my health and work.

Handful of meaningful real relationships

Thats it!